What am I supposed to be doing with my life? What is a Christian woman to do in this modern age? These were the unspoken questions of my early adulthood. I lacked vision for how a life of faith extended beyond my Bible study, and the result was years of my life characterized by listlessness. While I pursued a life of ministry in my local church, I nonetheless experienced a painful gap between the high of that work with the low of my day-to-day. Someday I will show my journals from those years to my children. My habitual pattern was to write stomach-sunk letters to God asking for his help to stop being the kind of woman who spent late nights binging television shows and beginning each new day worn out and discouraged by my sluggish existence